Zestful One

My Grownup Christmas List

Posted by IcedNyior on December 23, 2003  |  No Comments

~ This is a song dat i really like to hear during the Christmas season. ~

My Grownup Christmas List
Do you remember me? I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasy
Well I’m all grownup now, but still need help somehow
I’m not a child but my heart still can dream
So here’s my lifelong wish, my grownup Christmas list
Not for myself but for the world in need

*Chorus:
No more lives torn apart, that wars would never start
And time will heal all hearts
Everyone would have a friend, and right will always win
And love would never end
This is my grownup Christmas list

As children we believe the grandest sight to see
Is something lovely wrapped beneath our tree
But Heaven surely knows that packages and bows
Can never heal a hurting human soul

*Chorus

End:
This is my only lifelong wish
This is my grownup Christmas list…..

The bossy friend

Posted by IcedNyior on December 19, 2003  |  No Comments

watched Lord of the Rings : Return of the King. It was good…..hhehehe….can’t really say much or else it might be a spoiler.  Go watch! One of my guy frens did comment dat it was rather boring….but probably coz he didnt watch the first 2 and isnt interested in these kinda movies.

Hmm…felt a bit irritated and frustrated today. One of my friends has been bossing people around lately and not being appreciative of what others do for him/her. His/Her actions are kinda pissing me off…. Can’t really stand seeing others being bullied. Hmm…but what can I do when others juz follows wat she/he says? Oh well…..I guess people change too much and too fast…..

Entertaining bfs

Posted by IcedNyior on December 18, 2003  |  No Comments

Looking back on my previous entry….it sounds pretty depressing. hehe! But things are slightly looking up….well….not exactly, but I’m trying to change my own outlook on things. Hehehe….life isn’t so boring if only you can find interesting things to do.

Hmm…my fren’s bf is in KK to visit for a week…..good excuse to go out…but then always having to end up trailing them from behind…sheesh…! Like today….spent bout an hour sitting down in Burger King while she was giving him a tour of the whole shopping mall. Thank goodness I wasnt alone! There were 2 guys from our uni as well who followed us so we ended up eating and talking there while waiting.

Yay! watching Lord of the Rings : Return of the King tomorrow afternoon wif the same bunch of frens mentioned above. Hope it’ll be good! I want to know the ending…hehehe…

[Writings] Untitled

Posted by IcedNyior on December 10, 2003  |  No Comments

~ Wrote this yesterday when I was in a sad mood….hmm  ~

I see in my mind’s eye

An empty field, void of anything,

I see myself in the middle of this field

Looking right and left

Seeing green ground meeting blue horizon

Everywhere I look.

Why? Why am I alone?

My heart cries out in pain

Why? Why this frustration?

I close my eyes and scream

Why? Why am I feeling this?

I get to my feet and run.

Running….endless running

Away from what, I don’t know

Towards where, I have no idea

Does it matter when my life

Seems like a meaningless cycle?

There has to be a way out of this

My heart whispers hopefully

I have yet to find the door

The door that will bring me happiness

Happiness seems like a dream

So far away, out of my reach

I feel tears welling up in my eyes

I bring my hand up to wipe it away

But it has dried up…

Dry tears that never fall from my eyes

Funny how tears seems to be my best friend

Tears that no one but I see

Tears no one even realizes could be there

Tears that no one can stop…

No one can help….

[Writings] One Love

Posted by IcedNyior on December 9, 2003  |  No Comments

~ A lil something I wrote a couple of years ago….~

One Love
One loving word can overcome dispute
Once loving touch can break down walls
One loveing hug can knit hearts
And a loving act saved the world

A loving friend is a gift
A loving family is treasure
A loving spouse is gold
And a child’s love is precious

One loving song can calm a tempest
One loving handclasp lifts a soul
One loving smile brightens the day
The warmth of love can thaw the cold

Love is like an ebbing river
Love can never end
Love is everlasting, forever
And love, not time, heals wounds.

Bad results :(

Posted by IcedNyior on December 6, 2003  |  No Comments

Finally got my results…….erm….quite bad. Kinda expected it…but I was hoping dat it wouldnt be as bad. Oh well, what can i do? No use crying over spilt milk……or failed papers……or wasted tuition fees for dat matter.

Well, all I can do now is juz try to enjoy my 3 months break coz I dont have classes till 8 March. Probably going back sooner to settle things up. Wats more with the possibility of moving to KL in Jan, I probably have to start packing up…yet again….

Wat i feel about the move to KL is….well, personally it doesnt affect me. I’m still going to study in Curtin for another semester, which means I’m basically still in the same place, which is great! Coz i hate moving……well….doesnt everyone…

Hmm….kinda dissapointed about my results……

Neighbours at 5am

Posted by IcedNyior on December 5, 2003  |  No Comments

Couldn’t sleep the whole nite thinking about my results today.

But i saw something really funny early this morning. My neighbour is an old lady. I looked out my window at 5 am this mornign and saw her walking all over the road picking up rubbish and throwing them in my rubbish bin. I was shocked and started observing her for about 10 mins until she re-entered her house. ( i live in a semi-detached hse). Weird….

Anyway, went out for breakfast with mom at 6.30 and then followed her around doing errands till about 9 am. Came back and went online…..tried looking for a link on the uni website to cehck results. No sign until 10 am. Called the uni, got response dat it will be out after 2pm. Went to sleep about 1 pm after lunch.

was awakened by a phone call from a fren. went online. tried for 1 hr to login but unsuccessful. Called the Uni again….they said they were trying to fix it…..have to try again tonite….

AARRRGGHHH!!! I can’t stand being on tenterhooks!

Waiting for results

Posted by IcedNyior on December 5, 2003  |  No Comments

Woke up so miserably late this afternoon!! that’s coz I was only sleeping at 5.30 am. Hehehe! Was watching anime – “Wolf’s Rain”. Kinda nice…one of the main character is so cute!! Sounds like I’m falling for animated characters now….pathetic isn’t it? Haha…nah, juz admire him. Haven’t been this interested in anime for almost 2 years now.

My mom is pestering me to work. but since I’m not sure whether I’m giong to take supp and I’m not sure whether we’re moving to another state in January, I told her dat its impossible to work for only 1/2 month in Dec. But she still insists….So I juz go…”ya ya” but dun do anything…hehehe….

I went out to CB (Coffee Bean ahh, not Cherrie Berries) and ate a really really nice cake!!! White choc, milk choc and dark choc in a chilled cheese cake….so nice!! ahahha!

My results are coming out in about 8 hours….and I’m worried I wont pass!! Or I might have to go backto the uni to take supplementary paper.

PC still not working

Posted by IcedNyior on December 2, 2003  |  No Comments

PC still not working ….i think it has something to do with the graphic card not transmitting properly or something. I’ve opened my CPU case and nothing is lose. Goinna send it to the computer shop later today. I cant stand it using my home computer…it’s too damned slow. I’d type 6 words before the letters all start appearing one-by-one real slow.

It’s the holidays…been back for 2 days. Did nothing but sleep, eat and go to toilet. Gotta make up for all the hours of lost sleep….ehhehe…But i’m bored, bored BORED!!!

juz today, my fren juz called me up for a chat but then she suddenly wanted to hang up 5 mins later…i asked why..she said “oh, my bf is going online” then she put the phone down…sheesh

and yesterday, when i called a fren out of state to ask for help bout my pc…all he could say was how much he missed his gf. He actually sounded like he was about to cry (which was really sweet, i think) but he wasnt much help either.

Meeting old friends

Posted by IcedNyior on December 1, 2003  |  No Comments

Bored. Just came back today in the evening and went to sleep after unsuccessfully trying to connect my PC up. Something wrong with the idiotic moniter. It was working fine a day ago. I feel so frustrated!!

Was very very VERY disappointed yesterday coz couldnt meet up with a very old dear fren who juz came back from Perth. Anyway, he gave me a call tho but he sounds so different already. Probably coz we havent seen/talked to each other for 6 yrs. In another case, I met my old classmate whom i havent seen for 6 yrs at the shopping mall but she juz passed by me without another glance. Probably it’s because she doesnt recognize me. Amazing how friends come and go in our lives…