Archive for November, 2004

S** In The City

Posted by on November 17, 2004  |  No Comments

{I have to censor some words in this post so that Curtin’s net nanny – Dan’s Guardian – will let ppl open my bloggy :)}
…..annoying…..
My bus schedule to uni has been moved earlier from 8.10 am to 7.30 am. Since my dad has to get to work before that, it means leaving the house after 6.30 am for a 9 am class (that’s the earliest class I have). Nuts isnt it?

Not only that, my morning class at 9 am was cancelled coz the lecturer didnt show up today (i think she’s on Hari Raya break). So i lepaked in the PC labs till my next class at 1.30 pm. I skipped lunch coz i had nasi lemak for breakfast {Shaun who’s in UK was SO jealous! :P}

…..hot gossip……but outdated….

A small number of ppl were online (on MSN) early that morning…around 9 am. But I chatted with this guy, B{Erin, rach, dont start teasing me yet! U gotta hear d rest of the story!}, from KK.

My history with B. He used to be my really close fren back in KK – so close in fact that ppl tot we were a couple. They’re so close minded. I really really liked him at one point of time….across a span of 3 years if im not mistaken {dont ask me how i managed to like him that long, i dunno}…but he never showed any interest even AFTER he found out during the last year. Then he got a gf a few months after he found out about me. And a few months after that it was time for me to move. Oh yes, he’s the same guy who cried when i left – i mentioned it in my earlier posts. Then after that we kinda lost contact and arent so close.

OK…he has asked me a few weeks back whether i still liked him. And i honestly answered no….havent been liking him for almost 3 years now. So we left the matter at that. However, today we had this conversation:

“did you ever that we could be more than best friends?”
him : “yes, i really did”
me: “What!?! Why didnt u ask me?”
him : “I was thinking about the future. If we got together and then broke up, our friendship will never be the same again”
me : “there is a small possibility that would happen”
him : “and I also liked k—- at that time”
me : “so u picked her instead….”
{they had a rough relationship which ended up with her hurtin him}

So….we did have a chance….but I guess he didnt take it. And I, well, I wasnt brave enough to ask him too. But at anycase, who goes into a relationship thinking about how it’ll fail? I guess its a blessing in disguise why we werent together. Why? Coz he indirectly cause a lot of probs to my family.
Well, its HIS LOSS, not mine :P And also a fren commented “who actually thinks about breakin up before even getting together?”

Oh yeah…he did say one thing that turned him off was my messiness {!?!}….then i came across this quiz online and did it..LOL!


Strategic Mess Player

To you, mess is inevitable. It will always be there, no matter what. But, hey, it’s all under control at least to you. You know what’s in each pile so it’s all good.

{I totally agree wif this…hehehe}

Back to my S * * post….
So there I was pondering about how different things could have been and chatting wif friends. Then we started a multi chat wif 6 ppl and somehow the whole messy conversation turned to s**. Oh, i think it was this guy who asked if gals could e j e c u l a t e {Im hoping that word wouldnt be censored} then we started this debate about it.

So there we were…..6 friends who had nothing to do on a weekday, late morning.

  1. I who is (in my own words) “educated but inexperienced”. Single
  2. My sis, who is younger than all of us by 2-4 yrs and same case as me. Single
  3. This gal who is having a long distance relationship (within Msia) with someone of a diff religion
  4. This guy who is also having a long distance relationship (overseas) and likes to watch p**n {den again most guys do, dont they?}
  5. This gal, a very very naive gal…..i mean she didnt even kno wat a “pussy” was
  6. This gal secretly dating someone of a diff race & having a superbly dirty mind

I think we were chatting for almost 1 hour about:

  • This stupid question posted in CLEO Nov 04 = “I think i have too much hair ‘down there’. Is this normal?”
  • The aforementioned question asked by the guy num 3
  • Whether ejc after s** outside the womb is considered abortion {one mutual fren insists that it’s true}
  • When is an abortion considered an abortion?
  • Who is v i r g i n and who isnt?
  • To trim or not to trim
  • STDs namely crabs…or p u b i c lice…eww!!

LOL….well, i was a lil late to class coz of the totally amsusing and entertaining conversation we had. Well, its educational {right Joe..ingat post u kat tagboard?} and im sure at least gal No 4 learned a lot of new things. Ahahhaha!!

BEFORE I FORGET!!!

Oh yeah…HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISLA~! well, actually belated la now….sowiee…kmk sikda credit mok sms ko…nasib sik terlupa. Heard ko org ngan izzah & gretch gi clubbing malam tadi…uuuu…jeles kmk!!

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Current mood: Amused
Now Listening to: “Perfect” by Simple Plan – im sorry i cant be perfect
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Blogs : What’s In A Post?

Posted by on November 16, 2004  |  No Comments

Wats the REAL reason that you have a blog?

  • As an online journal?
  • As a way to keep in touch?
  • As a way of telling your story?
  • As personal website?
  • Because all your friends are doin it so you wanted too?
If it’s the last one, dont waste ur time bloggin…coz i dont want to waste my time reading. Mayb im being too judgemental…but come on! why waste time on something you arent interested in?

My belles-lettres (go look in my first post what this means) is all about my writings, my feelings, my stand, my thoughts…and most importantly MY life.

*juz felt like ranting {no, not ranting kayu} about the useless ppl who have blogs for useless reasons. No, no, im not necessarily talking about you. THEN AGAIN…..i might*

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on to my post for today….

Yesterday nite, I went out for dinner with 2 cousins (alfred & richard) & their families. Richard (whom i have never met) was with his wife, and Alfred was with his wife & 2 sons, Ephraim & Kit. I remembered Ephraim as the lil boy i used to play with back in Miri. He’s all grown up now, 17 years old, tall, deep voice & sitting for his SPMs. Kit was a baby when i last saw him so he’s grown too, 12-13 now.

It was a pretty interesting dinner. Not the types that the parents all talk (mostly about their kids) and the kids juz eat in silence. It was actually fun meeting up with them again. We ate at the Chinese Restaurant in Bukit Jalil Country Club ( not sure of the full name tho) and the food was yummylicious!

Came back, finished printing my IT Project 1 (which i spent the whole night last nite doin – bout 5-6 hrs!! – and the whole of this afternoon trying to print it properly) then laze around and somehow got a really bad flu. As I write, im sneezing non-stop and the dustbin is like full of tissues. Argh….definatly caused by lack of sleep.

Wana go sleep, but my sneezing is making me unable to sleep….

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Current mood: Sick!!!
Now Listening to: “Pulangkan” by Misha Omar & Ezad – Pulangkan cinta hatiku, hentikanla menghantuiku, pulangkan oh pulangkanla padaku…
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One Of The Guys…..

Posted by on November 16, 2004  |  No Comments

For years I’ve been pursued by a certain kind of guys. Guys who fancied someone I knew, guys who wanted to pout their little hearts out all over me, guys who wanted me for one thing only – friendship. For years I was flattered by all this male attention. I honestly thought it meant I was popular with boys and we all kno how important that is, right? And yet, come weekend nights it was my friends who went out on dates while i stayed at home sitting in front of the computer, travelling thru cyberspace.

I wasnt lonely. I had plenty of friends. Most of them guys. “Don’t kno how u do it,” my girl friends would say to me. “Guys really like you, dont they?” I’d smile and feel proud but underneath, something didnt seem all nice and cosy.
(Adapted from CLEO Nov 04)

Reading that was like reading my life story.

For the past 8-9 yrs, I hardly had any close gal friends. I was the one whom guys felt comfortable with, the one they came to with their probs, the one who chilled with them talking bout footie & games, the one that helped pick out presents for their gal and more often than not, the one that played “matchmaker”.
Their girlfriends would envy me for having so much in common with them. In one extreme case, I was (unknowingly) the cause of a fight coz the gf was a lil jealous (!!) sensitive biatch

Perhaps moving away was a good idea. Starting over is always a good thing right? Bad thing was, Im not as close to my guy best frens as before coz guys are lousy at keeping in touch!.

I remembered when I moved from KK to KL in early 2004. It was so sad. The farewell dinner was okay…till the part J sang and the words were so meaningful I almost cried {almost only! i never cry in public}. Den one of the aforementioned guy best frens actually cried over the phone before i left {he really caught me by surprise there…..[Joe: mcm kekurangan sifat-sifat kelakian kan?]}. That’s how close I was to my guy friends.

Perhaps i really am privilaged that I can say that I have been considered “one of the guys”.
However, that has lotsa drawbacks as well……..

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Bad bad blogger

Posted by on November 14, 2004  |  No Comments

Argh…blogger somehow deleted my HTML coding while i was uploading my old shoutbox back. SO frustrating!! Then i had to put my backup coding…then spent ages fixing it up. U’ll notice im still missing a lot of things from the orginal. No goals scrolling up, lotsa links missing and a few small pics missing. Ah well…at least my shoutbox is working again.

{Winnie, Zam, Emy and everyone else who isnt linked here, pls tell me ur URL and I’ll link u back straightaway. }

One more thing, I called a friend overseas to ask them to wait for me online and when i went online, they were online but Away. Argh!

Im starting to feel depressed & frustrated :(

.: I miss you….but do you miss me as much as I do u? *cries*:.

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Current mood: Frustrated
Now Listening to: “How Deep Is Your Love” by Take That – “coz we’re living in a world of fools…breaking us down, when they all should let us be, we belong to u and me”
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I went to one Utama to eat Nandos 4 dinner today (didnt eat the whole day) then passed by this shop called roominteriorproducts. There’s this message bag that I’ve been eyeing for months and want to buy but it’s so damn expensive (RM90 or something like that).
The red one plays love messages like “You’re gorgeous”, “I love you” when its pressed and the yellow one laughs when you press it.
The orange one lets u record your own message and plays it when it detects motion in the room. That’s the one i want!! :’( not that anyone will give it to me *cries*

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I dreamt….

Posted by on November 13, 2004  |  No Comments

I dreamt that I got an email from you.
I dreamt you said you missed me lots and was sorry we couldnt meet often.
I dreamt that you promise to be true to me.
I dreamt that in the week you were coming you treated me like a queen.
I dreamt that we parted after that one week with promises that we would be together,
that we would be true, that you would wait till I come see you next year….
And i continue to dream…………………..

juz felt like writing that….btw, i really did dream all that last nite. But as the last line says, its only a dream…hehehehe

Oh yeah,
Happy Birthday HUD~! Tho of course ur not reading this, but wat the heck! I might give u a call – if im rajin enough. LOL! :P

One more note:
Sadly, Melvin Dennis has left Evenstarr to concentrate on completing his degree. So sad, Mel was one of the first and best band members to befriend. And he was also the funniest. I cherish the first time i met him at CB in miri and we hanged out at a coffee shop till dawn. Exchanging jokes, and he even accidently thought a customer was a waitress and asked for a drink. damn that was funny.

Hope to see you around Mel~!

p/s: Isla, Heidi, Lola: nang bena crita tok……sedih kmk Mel dah kluar dari evenstarr la…dahla nya plg best klakar, yg lain ya, serious sikit.

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Current mood: Melancholic

Filed Under: Birds and Bees, Gossip, Personal

This is my Song….

Posted by on November 12, 2004  |  No Comments

I hope you dont mind, i hope you dont mind….that I’ve put down in words……
~ “Your Song” , Ewan Macgroger, Moulin Rouge OST

I did mention in my earlier post that Jeremy wrote me a song before I left KK right? Well, here it is :

IN YOU I’VE FOUND A FRIEND

People come and people go,
But they’re some that change my world,
It’s You, in You I’ve found a friend.

Joy and sadness; laughter and tears,
I have shared through the years,
With you, in you I’ve found a friend.

CHO
You showed me love, you showed me care,
You were always beside me, always there,
You’re a friend, till the END
Just like the rainbow after the rain
When I needed someone, you stretched out your hand
You’re a friend, till the END
In You I’ve found a friend

Seperated we may be, over mountains, over seas
Dont worry gurl,
You know you’ve got a friend in me

When it feels like all is gone
Don’t give up just carry on
He’ll carry you
In Jesus you’ve found d best of FRIENDS


Best friends :)

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Perempuan Bermata Hijau (Part 2)

Posted by on November 12, 2004  |  1 Comment

Okay so I admit that i LOVE taking pics of myself…….but my sis is much worst! Trust me!

Taken from a bit further away {Is it more obvious now?}


Okay, this pic is to compare. Im wearing green contacts on the left and nothing on the right. Now you can see d difference.


Was modelling for my sis’ photography craze


I juz figured out I could take Black & White pics…..and also Sepia (that’s the reddish one above)


Oh yes, this is a poster I made from magazines, brochures and Nokia postcards. nice eh? It’s stuck on my bedroom door now :)

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Current mood: Creative
Now Listening to: Nothing

Filed Under: Photolog

Perempuan Bermata Hijau

Posted by on November 11, 2004  |  5 Comments

{P/S: Does the topic look a bit familiar Joe? LOL!!}
Wearing my new green contacts. In case u guys didnt realize, i already had contacts a long time ago, but only normal ones. Now i’ve got coloured ones
My face looks really weird here!!!!
Close up..in this shot, it’s pretty obvious….
With green makeup, special request from Omar
{See, i do pay attention to my readers’ wants :)}
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Green Eyes Looking At me between the bushes in forest deep
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Filed Under: Photolog

So….

Posted by on November 10, 2004  |  2 Comments

yeah, juz a short update…I’m going to get my coloured contacts tomorrow (I hope!) its green, will take beautiful pics of my eyes when i get it…LOLz!

And my business management test was postponed from Mon to Wed – and i still am too lazy to study. Will study tomolo afternoon.

On Monday, I met that classmate of mine who was coming on to me too strongly on Fri nite. Doubt if he remembers anything, but he did purposely sit next to me tho. And touch my shoulder at one point – before we hardly even talked.

Didnt have any class on Tues, so juz lepak at home……

I finally managed to meet — online today and chat for like 1-2 hrs. I miss him….

I kno u guys are wondering who — is….well, all i can say at this moment is that we have never met, but we are pretty good friends considering how short we’ve known each other….and we’re meeting up end of this month, so I’ll see how it goes…
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Current mood: Wondering
Now Listening to: “First Love” by Utada Hikaru
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Pics pics

Posted by on November 9, 2004  |  1 Comment

I’m having flu lar…since yesterday so I slept really early…around 7 pm and only woke up at noon today *wow!* ehhehe :P

Arggh…my earlier post on Mon morning didnt get posted :( Here’s an excerpt:

Have you waited online for a whole day for someone to message you?

I have….yes, i used to think it was silly and useless. But that’s what i did on Sunday afternoon. Not exactly the whole day. But i was online the whole afternoon. Then again at 10 pm till 3 am. Oh well…..

But i still didnt meet the person i wanted to…..

Anyway, i did say i wanted to post up the pics i took rite? So here they are :

Me and my sisters


Q : What’s that!?!?!
A : 3 Monkeys – Speak no evil, Hear no evil, See no evil


Me, me and me again…..yes, i kno I’m vain :P


Taken with Sony Cyber-shot® Digital Camera DSC-F88

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Current mood: Still waiting for someone to come online

Filed Under: Laughs, Photolog

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