I was hanging out with a couple of frens at a fren’s hse on new year’s eve and we had a great time talking and laughing about nasi lemak bungkus, the God complex and gambir Sarawak so many other things.

Anyway, one question that popped up was “what have you achieved in 2005 (besides work/studies)?” After i went back, i was thinking about how so many things has happened to me in the past year that made a significant change in my life.

So what have i actually achieved?

1. A greater sense of maturity - mixing with older more matured people made me more aware of the complexity of life and learn from other ppl’s experiences
2. More understanding of the opposite sex - This year I have been dabbling a lot in relationships (mostly with negative results) and my verdict : Its too complicated for me to take interest in it.
3. Freedom - In late 2005, my parents finally gave up on me trust me enough for me to make my own decisions. They have given me alot of freedom, of which I am very grateful.
4. A larger group of friends - I’ve learnt to change my mindset about people, prejudices and stereotypes by getting to know more types people that I usually would.
5. The drive to do my best - Listening to people’s stories make me want to strive to do the best even if it seems impossible at this moment. I want to be successfull, not someone who will look down the road in 40 yrs time and say “Damn! why didnt I do better when I was younger?”
6. Better Attitude - I’ve learnt to adopt a don’t-care attitude, especially when it comes to ‘what people think’. I realized that you cant change people’s mindset esp if they are some old, overly sensitive, mcm baik sgt makciks so just do your own thing and time will decide who is right.

It probably doesnt look like a lot of achievements to most people but everything mentioned is a big deal in my point of view. To some it might seem silly, nonsense or (God forbid!) insulting.

Come to think of it, 2005 has been an interesting year, full of funny incidents and anecdotes, but dotted with a few low points. Here’s a short summary:

Clubbin 5 nites a row in KK | Hooked up with 1st bf | Getting to know CS group | Getting involved in Yahoo! Chat | Seriously into Blogs & RBJ | Regularly clubbing | Regularly drinking | Breezing thru studies | Had a stalker | Fofular in KL1,KL2, Msia1 | Meeting chatters | Dating chatters | Took a break from clubbing | Attended gatherings | Involved in blogwar | Started my degree | Made lots of meaningful friendships | Breaking up | Made a vow not to date chatters | Broke a few friendships | Stopped chatting | Moved house | Learnt mamak-ing till dawn | Learnt to survive without internet | Re-read every fiction i own | Bought tons of new books | Bogged down with assignments | Made Starbucks my 2nd home | Started Clubbing again | Met 2nd bf | Went out almost every nite with the guys | Drinking more | Stuck to a close circle of friends | Breaking up | Got good results | Holiday with Family

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Something I came across while digging old chat logs:

P: u are okay .. bubly …. straight open
P: hmmmm cool
P: patience .. somehow pening tenngok reactions orang lain .. apsal laa this world is somehow weird ..
P: apsal laa orang cannot be this and that
P: hahaha
P: knowledgeable …. experience … able to fit in the crowd …
P: hmmm
P: bab yang tak baik ..
P: time management .. selalu kantoi

Dear P,
U’ll be glad to know that one of my many resolutions is to improve on my time management

Beautiful woman are made to be admired. Dont you agree? Im sure many guys lusted over Angelina Jolie in Mr & Mrs Smith. As a normal human being, I appreciate beauty : be it a lifelike painting, a gorgeous sunset, a handsome guy, and even, a beautiful woman.

Lately I’ve been lepaking with my guy frens alot (as usual la..its been like that since a long time ago) and I have this feeling that they’ve started considering me as “one of the guys”. And like most other guys (and some girls) when they hang out together-gether, they like to ogle at the opposite sex- even when they are halfway telling an interesting story.

The thing is, i often join in these discussions and even throw in a few comments of my own. ahaha! Even talking about fantasies and stuff - from standards like a hot gal wearing a man’s long-sleeved button up shirt with nothing underneath to outrageous ones like…err…i’d rather not say because I still want to keep my blog PG-13. haha!

Anyway, the other day my fren asked me something funny :
Fren : can i ask u something?
me : yea?
fren : Are u lesbian?
me: huh? No la!! *laughs*
fren : But you look at girls…
me : Well, beautiful women are made to be admired
fren : oh yeah..and so much more…*gives this horny look*

*note to self : must stop ogling at girls

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It seems like he haunts me now that i’ve broken up with him. First, when i went to lowyat the other day, i happen to walk into the shop that we always browsed around in and we used to date in BB (because it was near his place and easily accessible). Then another time, someone happen to pass by me somewhere in ikano and he smelt exactly like my ex - Jean Paul Gaultier, the blue bottle of a man’s torso.

And the freakiest one was when I was at TTDI and this guy with the same body build and style of dressing came. He even used a black bandanna with some white tribal designs - exactly what my ex always used coz he didnt like his haircut - i mean, who uses that anymore? Its outdated. I had to like look closely to make sure it wasnt him. Phew!

freaky eh?

Some YM conversations I had recently:
Me: i was so confused as to why there was soooo many ppl in ikano..coz its a monday
incik amat:
Me: then i realized…its a pubic hol
incik amat: sultans besday
Me: opps *shocked expression* I mean….public *laughs*
incik amat: yup its a pubic holiday *gelak guling*

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Hairy: i sit by a window in my office n the aircon seems rather underpowered
Me: hehe
Me: at least ur nipples wont be erect cos of the cold
Hairy: the heat are making other things erect if u get what i mean
Hairy: hahahaha
Me: i didnt kno the ‘other things’ was heat sensitive?
Me: i kno they shrivel up in the cold tho…ahha
Me: didnt kno it works viceversa…hahaha
Hairy: i was referring to the hair on my arms
Hairy: lol
Me: hahaha
Me: i tot hair all over reacts the same way…even hair on your buttocks…
Me: if u hv a hairy ass la
Me: hahaha
Hairy: woman
Hairy: im like king-effing-kong
Hairy: im all about hair everywhere
Hairy: lol
Me: ew ew ew ew!!!
Me: so disgusting
Me: chest hair turns me off…and when i see nipple hair, i feel like plucking them off
Hairy: u havent seen nothing yet
Hairy: i have bellybutton hair
Hairy: haha
Me: …..

Last week or so I worked in this research/surveying company doing English to BM translations for RM6/hour. Its NOT as easy as I imagined it to be. I had an english-BM dictionary (to help translate) on one hand, and a BM dictionary (to help find the perfect word) on the other, with a laptop in the middle - running on PIII btw. At first was using a PC that was running on 64MB RAM then i got changed to use the laptop. Spent the whole day doing like 30-40 sumthing questions. Man it was not easy translating all those technical terms to BM, such as - navigational aid system, interactive voice response (tindakbalas interaktif suara).

Anyway, today i was talking with farm (who helped me get the job):
Farmy: weh bos i kata ur translation superb!!
Me: *laughed* okeh..lain kali bayar lah extra!
Me:
Farmy: chait
Me: this is something i hv to blog about
Me: the translation thingy
Farmy: cool
Farmy: yeah [the boss] came in n tanya
Farmy: siapa did it
Farmy: u know my malay kan hampas
Farmy: she said very good n interesting

So take tat SPM marker who gave me a B3 for my SPM. see, i am good in BM

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Another bit of conv with a friend who put his status as *webcam icon* “View my Black Ass”:

AssMan (12/8/2005 6:29:01 PM): meh tgk wecam kejap nak tanya aje clear ke idak
Me (12/8/2005 6:29:02 PM):omg, ur ass is BLACK?!?
AssMan (12/8/2005 6:29:17 PM): view kejap meh
AssMan (12/8/2005 6:29:34 PM): clear ke?
Me (12/8/2005 6:29:44 PM): nak tgk bontot gak
AssMan (12/8/2005 6:30:27 PM): gi ler usha bontot kat starbuck tu
Me (12/8/2005 6:30:34 PM): bontot sini tak best

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Something i got off an email…gave me a good laugh:
:: The Cardiologist’s Funeral ::

One of the city’s top cardiac specialists died. At his funeral, his coffin was placed in front of a huge replica of a heart made of red roses. When the pastor finished the sermon and everyone said their good-byes, the large heart opened up, the coffin rolled inside, and the heart closed again. It was a majestic tribute to the much loved cardiologist.

Suddenly, one of the mourners burst into a fit of laughter. Irritated by his insensitivity, the man sitting next to him asked, “Why are you laughing, Mister?”

“I was just thinking about my own funeral,” the man replied. “I’m a gynaecologist”…
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Oh but i got this for my birthday from my sisters. Its a coin pouch from Body Shop & MTV to increase awareness on AIDS and HIV. It even comes with a condom {one where got enough?} hidden in the back flap. I love the condom colour and design of it..so cute!

This is the unclear pic i took using my camera phone. U can see the condom on the right…yes..Durex : for better protection. The white/red thingy at the bottom is a leaflet about AIDS and HIV.
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Oh and actually i had an extreamly crappy morning - i woke up wonderful but got into an argument with Mom, felt really tired (coz couldnt sleep last nite) and i look and felt like shit. But well, many amusing things happened so I guess my day turned out ok

Sitting in the living room listening to the radio on the hi-fi,

Mom : Show me how u dance la in clubs
Me: huh?
mom : yala, u go clubbing, takkan la dont dance?
me : no i just sit at the bar and drink
mom : maybe one day I should just quietly go there and look for you
me: What?!? no need la!! (*screams in my mind* Oh for the love of God, NOOOO!!!)

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In the car on the way to cyberjaya, mom was driving…

mom : so what do u usually drink when u go out clubbing?
Me : (*thinks* is this a trick question to get me to admit i actually drink or what?) well, uh, that depends…vodka lime or something with coke.
mom : Oh, next time u go out, try this 2 drinks. Cointreau+7up and Southern Comfort+Orange. Nice..not too much of a kick also, unless u drink alot

did i hear that right? my MOM giving suggestions for drinks???

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A few nites ago….

After coming back at 2am and seeing my parents entertaining good friends of theirs, I went in and did all the “hello auntie, hello uncle” intro

me: wuah, drinking ahh? (after noticing a half finished bottle of JW black label on the table)
dad : yeah u want some?
me : huh? no lah (*thinks* what?!?!)
dad : aiya..just a bit la….
me : nolah, its ok *quickly escapes to my room*
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my parents are getting weirder by the day…….(im not sure whether to be happy or worried….for now, im treading cautiously)

me: lagu yg u suka tu, Isis - Goo goo dolls..i ada versi acostik…best siut…STIM
mak ayam: really?
mak ayam: gime gime
mak ayam: all time fav song tu
me: best…sampai terbasah basah meleleh
me:
mak ayam: siottt
mak ayam: hahahaha
mak ayam: air apa yg meleleh?
me: i curi dari thumbdrive pokiah aritu
*5 minit kemudian*
mak ayam: MEMANG MELELEH LAAAA DGR LAGU NIE ~
me: kan kan kan kan???
mak ayam: KAAAAANNNNN
me:
mak ayam: hehehe
mak ayam: rasa nk kawen dgn dia
me:
me: kaya tak?
me:
mak ayam: sape?
me: kalo kaya…tapi buruk…takpe
mak ayam: goo goo dolls
mak ayam: sure kaya
me: buruk tu leh tutup mata
me:
mak ayam: hehehhe
mak ayam: ensem pun tutup mata gak kdg
me:
mak ayam: hehehhe
mak ayam: tatau la if u stim bukak mata
mak ayam: hahahahha
mak ayam: terbeliak cam tercekik
me:
me: i tutup mata
me:
mak ayam: yeessss
mak ayam: good girl