Somehow i feel like my trip to miri was a whirlwind of emotions. I felt like something was missing during that trip. Some was good, some bad, but a few below my expectations. Well, you gain some and you lose some. Going back brings back lots of memories, which makes me remember the fun times i had and how the 1.5 yrs i was there (2003-early 2004) were the best years of my life so far.Oh well, time to move on i guess.

On a positive note, i managed to meet Buxxe & dok minum minum sambil tgk dier dance) {sorry ahh, i tak layan house music la beb}. Best gak

Am utterly tired as hell sbab sampai tis morning around 12 something..sampai umah, unpack, mandi…then dah dekat kul 2 am…so tak leh tido…online sampai pagi….tapi kena paksa pegi uni.

Sampai uni….terlalu penat so tertido in library….and one incident happened…..entah camner i salah duduk sampai “prakkk”…bunyi koyak….Zip jeans terkoyak plak…nasib kat tepi gak..so tak obvious…..roflmao. So mau tak mau…kena dok kat library jek sampai balik umah nanti kul 3 pm. Nasib gak ari nie pakai baju panjang skit..leh kaver

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MESEJ DARI SPONSER
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Isla, Heidi: thx sbab mek leh diam kat umah ktk….hehhe…nang best klakar ngan ktk org even sik sempat jumpa sidak. Mun dtg KL, iboh lupa agak ok Kim salam sayang pada Lola (lesbian lover ku)…hahhahahah

Nok lain lain ya, thx sbab sanggup juak belanja….and kluar jumpa

Miss ktk smua eh
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Chinese New Year has always been a time of fun for me. Back when I was living in KK (1997-2003) it has always been a time for friends. CNY Eve would be spend hanging around the annual CNY night market and on the 1 day there would be a church service followed by lunch out with friends and house visiting. First Aaron (the usual driver) would pick me up – while managing to collect an angpau (red packet filled with money, standard amount would be RM2-5) from my parents – then on to pick up other friends (usually either Yappy, Anderson, Karen, Brian, Jeremy).

Then we would begin our rounds of visiting all the youth and nibbling and eating at every house. Its impolite to decline offers of food and drink. Then we’d visit most of the aunties and uncles that we knew, after usually ringing them up to be sure they were home.

It wasn’t really the money that made it enjoyable, but the company of friends, laughing, eating, telling stories and anecdotes. Those were the days.

Despite being a half-Bidayuh, half-Chinese, I’m not fluent in Cantonese (which is the dialect my mom speaks) or Hakka (which is what most ppl in KK speak). I can however pick up the general idea of what people are trying to say. Which is a shame because I should be able to speak my mother’s language.

Anyway, this year, I celebrated CNY at my mom’s hometown – Tg Malim, Perak. We left Damansara ard 4.30 pm then arrive d here in about an hour or so. Saw 2 accidents on the way within 10 KM of each other. Tsk tsk..drivers these days.

Got back, ate a little bit then went promptly to the room to sleep (read : hide & pass time) because there’s nothing to do and no one attempts to speak to us in something other than Cantonese so I might as well take a nap after I type this. Zzzzz

Back to my boring life in KL. Sleep late, wake up late, clean up d hse, cook, online.

Oh yes, im going to stay at the Coronade Hotel on Sat nite to celebrate a friend’s birthday. So we will be lepaking around BB la. {No clubbing at all. really!!}

Nah, my gambar rambut…looks simple from the front…but tengok at the back la My mom almost freaked. My dad ok jer. Finally my mom says it looks “funky” - what ever that’s supposed to mean.

Nice or not? not very clear tho…more pics of my KK trip to come soon There’s some in my fotopages already

I was juz sitting in front of the TV when “Jalan-Jalan cari makan (jjcm)” came on and I remembered this funny story.

This happened in 2003. My family and my best friend (we grew up together) were on holiday in Melinsung - somewhere near Kundasang - on the way to the foot of Mt Kinabalu. Then we stopped by this hotel on a hill juz to look around and take pictures.

I was sitting at the lobby resting when the chef burst into the lobby and dragged us all into the coffeehouse and asked us to sit. He said they’re giving free food. We were given rice then some lauk : ostrich curry (yes, ostrich), paku pakis belacan and a few others. we were served Sabah Tea. Then bout 10 mins later, we saw the host for JJCM walk in and talk a bit then the camera pan (media speak for looking around while shooting- sort of) around the coffee house. The host & cameramen also went from table to table, shooting the food we ate, asking what we thought.

My dad - being the usual joker he is - proceeded point point at the different dishes, explaining each dish and adding comments melebih-lebih : “this is pakupakis with belacan, a type of prawn paste. This is ostrich curry, the meat is quite tender and the curry is not too spicy. My best fren & I already start ketawa terbahak-bahak…nasib camera tak nampak. Then they shoot my mom..and the host ask something like how’s the tea. then my mom praised the Sabah tea - very sedap la, nice flavour, bla bla.

Sabah tea is the WORST tea i’ve tasted. Honestly! And lots of my Sabahan friends say so as well

That was really funny as we tried to hold our laughter and posing like makan ngan syok when the camera pointed at us.

I changed the comment format. Now you dont have to login to blogger to post a comment. Jus put ur name, email and/or website. Something like using Haloscan but I found out that Haloscan has limited memory.

someone said “syok baca blog u”…hehe….feels great to get compliments like that at least adala juga org baca ttg my mundane life (yg tak seberapa nie). ada gak pembaca setia *terharu* hehehe

According to the statistics, ever since i left on the 18th, the page views on my blog has declined gradually, reaching the lowest point on 22nd & 23. There was a jump on the 24th, which is the beginning of the week but it also declined till the 30. On the 31st there was more visitors because i came back already mahhh

Flames of lurrve that is. I mentioned in an earlier post that I used to really like my guy best friend (4-5 yrs) until he did something (indirectly) to cause trouble to my family. I havent seen him for a year now. And i dont really keep in contact with him online because i found him irritating.

However…

He was sooo nice to when i finally met him on the 30th. He didnt look for me for the past 2 weeks i was in KK but that day he paid for lunch and was the only one who sent me to the airport. I have this feeling that if i stayed longer in KK, we would probably end up together. I feel as if the bond is (was?) still there.

I totally got the shock of my life today. There’s this guy i met online who, after a couple of weeks chatting and meeting up once, claims to “love” me & sends lotsa smses but i rejected him. Then he said he wants to commit suicide, coz life is not worth living, bla bla…he said he threw his phone away already.

Then i was chatting with him early this morning at around 3 am and he told me he drank “pereput makan” (what is that?!? i assume its some sort of poison) and he hasnt eaten/drank for 3 days. He said he feels sick, his eyes blurry and it might be his last day.

Then suddenly, he started typing nonsence. then i got a message saying “kwn u pengsan. naper ngan dier nie? mulut dier berdarah” and i answered “antar dier pegi hospital, dier cuba bunuh diri tu.” Then i went offline and went to sleep

then this morning (ard 9 am) i got an SMS from his number saying “Cik tahu no ini siapa? utk pengetahuan pihak cik, sekarang tuan phone ini telah dimasuk dalam ICU. Apa bila pesakit ini sedar(6 or 14) pihak kami akan menghubungi cik. pihak kami juga memerlukan nama dan no ic cik untuk membuat pendaftaran pesakit.Ini kerana tiada no dan alamat lain selain no pihak anda. Sila sms nama & no ic ke no ini. Terima kasih”

my reaction was “huh?!?!” *mata terbliak besar*

im my groggry-juz-woke-up state, i smsed my name (but DIDN’T give my IC num of coz) and his name (i only kno his first name) and asked which hospital is he in. No reply tho.

Oh well, i dont really care. Now i sound like a cold-hearted biatch. LOL! for all I kno, it could be a scam.

18^th Jan 2005 (Tue)

My flight was at 4.25 pm to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah transit Miri, Sarawak. Was delayed in Miri for an hour due to a “technical error that had to be corrected before departure”. Friends in KK had to wait anxiously for an hour because there was no way to contact them (I did not get down from the plane during the transit because it was only supposed to be for 45 mins). No, I did not use AirAsia but MAS.

Erin, Mag, Derek and Yapp were faithfully waiting in KK airport (love u guys! Muax!) then we went to Tg Aru Beach to eat satay & drink coconut (which costs a bomb and was yucky). Then Mag, Glad & I went to The Beach Club (TBC) to looksee.

There was lots of people there. Probably because it was ladies nite. I just sat at the bar observing people when this guy next to me started buying me drinks (by the jug). But he was really quiet, so we juz sat and enjoyed the music. I never took so much vodka lime & vodka coke like that nite. Needless to say, that is so goin to be the last time i drink so much.

Note: yes people, i do drink. and with a quite high tolerance as well, meaning i dont get drunk easily.

Woke up late (read: hangover. my first ) then went to Mag’s place in the afternoon. Lepak around in her place, chit chat then picked Liz* to go to TBC (yeah yeah, same place as yesterday). Met a couple of guys, went to R&B (another club - very lame name but nice songs) dance there. The atmosphere there reminded me of Bar Flam in Bangsar and Coyote Ugly in Miri (coz of the bar top dancing).

Mag, Liz & G was busy snogging & dancing around. As USUAL, I was juz sitting at the corner, drinking & observing. Coz I don’t do the snog-and-dance-for-free-drinks things, I find it kinda degrading. Yes I admit, I did do that a few times before (not including the snogging) but after that I decided that I didn’t want to act like a slut for the sake of free drinks because being labeled as a slut in a club is so very degrading (I have many friends who are actually labeled like that already, no mentioning of names tho).

However, I do not judge any of my friends who actually do that. My view is like this : you do your thing, and I’ll do mine. And we don’t interfere with each other.

*Name changed to protect privacy

Went to Centerpoint Sabah (CPS) “mall” for lunch. Wanted to eat Dreamfood (but it was closed ) Drank at Yoyo Ice - this shop that sells great milky tea. Looked around the “mall” and played para-para (I suck at it already) then went back.

Went out for dinner wif my koko, Lian, who I met for the first time that nite he brought me to eat Italian food at Lil Italy and paid for it. Sat and chit chat for ages, till the restaurant almost closed then went to meet his friends at Easyway (the bubble/milky tea shop).

By that time a friend of mine - codenamed A - was pissed coz we had plans to meet and when I asked em to go ahead first, she was accusing me of putting a guy first and ditching my friends. A was goin on and on about how I was ditching them and insisted that I get Lian to send me there at that very moment. I just asked her to go ahead first then put down the phone.

Managed to meet up with A & frens later. Did the usual.

It was the last night for this 8-piece band Detour from Manila to play at TBC. Detour is one of the best bands I’ve heard and I’ve heard my fair share of live bands - both good and bad - not to mention that they have a really cute lead singer (who is unfortunately gay but as my galpals say “it doesn’t hurt to look”) and another equally good looking singer (who is straight, thank god! ). They sing well but were going back to the Philippines. Their last performance was really good with mostly R&B songs, some alternative and Linkin Park type songs.

The DJs played really good songs that night so overall, it was a great nite for music & dancing. Though a bit sad because Detour was leaving so there were lotsa hugs and handshakes and camera flashes all around.

Oh yeah, I met Mark - an old friend I haven’t seen for 3-4 years. The first time we met was at this church camp in Telupid. Imagine our shock at seeing each other in a club. Haha! He was there to observe the band - coz he has a band of his own.

Mag and I did this spur of the moment thing. We popped into a salon and got really ferocious birght red highlights. everyone was shocked..haha…lepaked around CPS looking at baju.

I met Erin, Arthur (who juz flew down from Russia) and Ivan (back from Adelaide for the holidays) at the Nyonya Penang place where they were having dinner. We chit chat for some time to catch up with each other’s lives.

While we were talking, i heard someone call out my name then when i looked up, i saw Nikki - yes, one of the top 10 in Malaysian Idol - with her “entourage” comprising of Jessy Anne, Charlene and Chelster, all my ex-classmates. She’s so classy and “made up” from when i last saw her (2 yrs ago), well, i guess she has a standard to meet now that she’s famous.

went to TBC that night to check out the new band called Hip2Soul (what is with the lame names?). My verdict : they cant really sing well and they are kinda old. I think one of the female lead singer (they hv 2 gals & 1 guy) is probably like late 30s or something. Come on..when ur that age, please please DONT sing in a club.

A had plans with us earlier but ditched us for the new guy she was seeing. At first she accuses me..then goes and does the same thing herself…wtf?

went to Melinsung after that with Erin. Melinsung is this housing area next to the beach, with like nice condos - very resort like. Lepak at the beach, went swimming, ate keropok. had great fun.

Didnt do much. Stayed at home mostly. Only went out clubbing on 25th (Tues). Mag got really drunk, so i had to jaga her, but everything went ok eventually.

Lian brought me out for dinner. Went to Tg Aru Beach but didnt find anything attractive to eat so we went to Heritage and ate Chicken Chop. That chicken chop place serves gigantic pieces for really cheap - bout RM 8 i think. Went back around 10.30 pm coz he had to be at work at 6 am (but he overslept the next day. LOL!)

Lian brought me out for dinner again, this time with another friend of ours (Amy) and her bf. We went to eat at this coffeeshop that sells western food - again - and i ate lamb chop. Quite nice. We chit-chatted till about 10 sumthing.

When i got back to my cousin’s place - im staying wif them in KK - they were all out. So i had to wait beside the swimming pool while getting bitten by mosquitos. They only got back after 11++ pm.

I went to CPS for lunch at BK with Erin. She was waiting for Arthur coz they were going to watch a movie. Then Ong passed by and said hi..and we exchanged our news and phone numbers. Then I met 2 of my high sch seniors. And after Erin & Art left, I met Lian and Amy. Haha! We took some pics and talked for a while before i went back.

That evening I went to Lil Italy for dinner with Arthur, Erin & Derek (who’s back from Sydney on holiday). Ivan came along soon after. Then the guys walked us back to near my hse (they also wanted to take a taxi) and i went back, took a change of clothing and met Mag & Liz* in TBC for my last nite clubbing before goin back. After clubbing & playin pool in TBC, we then club-hopped to R&B (to finish half a bottle of JD. LOL!). In short, we all had a great time.

Slept at Mag’s place last nite. Went to CPS for a bit & went to play pool, then went to sleepover at her place, talked for ages, watched TV. Sleep. Was VERY sober. LOL!

Went to church today (!!) yes church Met old church friends and a lot of my parents friends. Everyone commented on my damn ganas hair Went for lunch at McD, played PPP for the last time with Aaron, then went back to zip up my bag and rush to the airport. Was ALMOST late, the check in counter closed after me. LOL!

Flew back to KL and arrived at approx 8 pm

…2004 memories…

How many boyfriends/girlfriends? none

How many crushes? 2 or 3 I tink – Lola, Heidi & I owez cuci mata anyway

Care to mention any names? Moe (thank god he’s not reading this)

Had to say goodbye to? Everyone in Miri & KK Grace before she left to Kch

Missed anyone? Everyone in Miri & Grace and some people in KK

Win anything? I won 2 online competitions and got LOTR merchandise & a Atomic Kitten CD

Best place you went to? Nowhere in particular

Worst place you went to? KL…haha…not used to it here….i juz need time

Happiest moment? During Bal’s birthday party I guess.

Worst moment? March-April when I had problems with friends

Best present? Christmas presents from Lian – coz no one every posted prezzies

Best party? Every weekend from March – June…seriously!!

Best movie? Butterfly Effect, Phantom of the Opera

Best song? Yeah - Usher featuring Ludacris & Lil’ Jon & The Reason - Hoobastank

Best month? June because all my problems got settled out. The only thing left was exams

Lesson you’ve learned from 2004? The value of friendships

Hope for this new year? Settling down in KL
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…me in 2004…

1. What did you do in 2004 that you’d never done before? Meet up with online friends alone (usually go in group). Club 4 days in a row. Go out clubbing before a final paper (Moral), came back and sat for the paper

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I did not make new year resolutions last year

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Not that I know of

4. Did anyone close to you die? No but my best friend’s grandmother passed away

5. What countries did you visit? Brunei…hahaha!

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? More determination!

7. What date/s from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? I don’t remember particular date, but the memories that will remain in my memory is the times that Lola stayed over in my hostel room for a month or so

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I didn’t feel like I achieved anything significant in 2004

9. What was your biggest failure? Not completing my Foundation in Engineering even tho I repeated some subjects

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Injury = shoulder pain after a motorcycle accident. Pain for almost a week.

11. What was the best thing you bought? A new handphone – Nokia 6610i after my old hp got stolen

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Lian coz he’s so nice to me

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Certain friends who hurt me

14. Where did most of your money go? Clubbing…haha..and transport (buses & taxis)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Blogging! I’d do it everyday. And Warcraft, played it on LAN every night. LOL!

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? The Reason - Hoobastank

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
(i) happier or sadder? At this time last year I was happier becoz I was in KK and we had lots of activities during the Christmas & year end celebrations
(ii) thinner or fatter? Fatter…haha! Lost quite a bit of weight in Miri
(iii) richer or poorer? No difference

18. What do you wish you’d done more? Concentrated on my studies

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Going out and caring so much about “what people think”

20. Did you fall in love in 2004? No

21. How many one-night stands? None

22. What was your favorite TV program? CSI, Gilmore Girls

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? No

24. What was the best book you read? Angels & Demons – Dan Brown

25. What was your greatest musical discovery? Erm….nothing. Im not musically talented

26. What did you want and get? I wanted to complete my studies but instead I got a whole lot of fun at the expense of my studies. Im lazy bah

27. What was your favorite film of this year? The Phantom Of the Opera

28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I juz went out for dinner on my birthday and went to Sid’s hse the next day for makan. I was 19

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? No having to move from Sarawak to KL

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? Cincai….haha….just simple but nice

31. What kept you sane? My good friends

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? None…not interested lah

33. What political issue stirred you the most? Hmm..not interested in politics

34. Who did you miss? Everyone i left behind in Curtin

35. Who was the best new person you met? Lian tho technically I havent met him

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: I learnt that trust shouldn’t be given so easily because the person that is your friend today could be your enemy tomorrow. I’ve also learnt that it’s okay to take risks and be brave as long as you are able to think out your actions properly. And that “what people think” doesn’t matter.