Remember how heavy the rain was last Tuesday (yesterday)?

Well I didn’t go to class on Tuesday (4-8pm) because I was sick - sneezing non stop since Tuesday morning due to a bad cold. Then it started raining heavily in the afternoon. I mean like really heavily, cats and dogs. Even my mom asked me not to go to class beause the rain was too heavy to drive long distance. Very loud thunder and lighting thrown in.

At one point there was this really bright flash of light and loud thunder and there was a trip. Luckily my laptop wasn’t plugged in at this time. Had to flick the switch on the power box - whatever it’s called. Then everything went back to normal. Or was it? First thing I noticed was that the internet was down. Went back out of my room to check the modem/router and found out that the modem had no lights. Electrocuted.

Oh, then my mom got a call from my youngest sis. She (my sis) tumpang-ed her tuition teacher to Centerpoint and as she was exiting the car, the opened the door and a car langgar-ed the door. Yep, pure carelessness. She didn’t even look out for a car before opening the door. Typical of her. My parents were pissed! My dad was like “all of you is like that, always accident. Feli (my sis) doesn’t even drive also can have this kind of accident.”

Mom had to drive to go pick her up while G and I were bored at home. No internet maa. So we wanted to go down to watch TV. Went downstairs and tried to on the TV. To no avail, electrocuted also. *sigh* Which added to my mom’s pissiness (is there such a word?) when she came back. Because the TV is her only source of entertainment at home.

Well, we managed to get a new modem & fix up the Internet that night. So yey for that! If not, I’d have to resort to watching all my DVDs which i downloaded and never watched. LOL!

p/s: Zestful Eats has been updated (after being on a haitus for a while). Go check it out!

Someone told… me that I look so troubled when I sleep, as if the weight of the world is on my shoulders. My cheeks droop and I don’t look happy. Which is contrary to how I am when I’m awake - bubbly, cheerful, funny, happy.

And I think… its because when I’m awake I don’t really worry about a lot of problems, I take life as it comes. But when I sleep, I dream weird dreams and never have restful sleep. My mind is constantly working, going around in circles, pondering things in my subconscious. Perhaps that why I look so tense. (more…)

The words that comfort me and make me feel loved
From the lips that have touched mine
Is spoken to another person,
The exact same tone, exact same mood
The very same words

“You’re playing with fire. Don’t forget karma.” said Pam. Yes, I know, I know. But this is the path I chose to take, karma or no karma. I selfishly chose my own happiness - without regard of what or who gets burnt.

Technically, I have no right to terasa. Come on, its not like I didn’t expect it to happen. I knew that I’d have to face it sooner or later and not just once, but a few times at that. But then, how come I feel so…..

Worst part is, no matter how much we try to assure ourselves, I know this won’t have a happy ending. Sigh~

**comments are closed because I just don’t feel like it**

I got into a big fight with my parents today. What started off as a simple argument turned out into a full-blown fight. It started with my Mom assuming that I made a mess, when actually it wasn’t me. She still continued scolding, then i also fought back coz she got the wrong person.

Then my dad got into the picture, and of course took my mom’s side. Then they ungkit (bring up) everything they weren’t satisfied about from before till now. So me being rebellious & sarcastic also lawan balik. One of my sisters who was there juz laughed at the whole thing and that made me even more pissed off.

So we ended the fight by screaming at each other and I changed and proceeded to walk out of the house. My dad was shocked and tried to stop me, asking me where i was going to go but I just untangled myself from his grip and walked away - on foot - to god knows where.

I went to reload my hp at a nearby shop & eat dinner - which i havent taken even tho it was almost 10pm - then had to decide what to do at that point. I had a few options :

(a) Stay over at my ex-bf’s place just so that I dont have to go home - but he’ll try to pujuk me to get back together with him, which is something I don’t want to do. Plus, I’ll be indebted to him for taking care of me.

(b) Lepak with friends - but Erin went back to KK, Nick had a family dinner and P was at office

(c) Hang around in that mamak stall till morning - but I’ll be dead bored and look really pathetic

Decided to meet P at his office and later go out mamaking with Nick at Bangsar - since i din really eat anything earlier. I think my eyes look swollen abit due to all the crying. Took a taxi to KJ & went down to KLCC.

My dad smsed something along the lines of “I-care-for-you-take-care” kind of thing which he uses EVERYTIME we have an argument. So i replied saying that its meaningless to me already.

Feel like dont want to go back
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Current mood: Cranky
Now Listening to: My LaunchCast Station

What a f***ed up day!?! It started this morning when I only slept around 4 am when I have to catch a bus to class at 8 am in KJ station. Then we had Design class which was pretty interesting. And there wuz like 15 riddles we had to solve in the class. Then this guy asked me for answers. But then HE passed all of MY answers as his own when the lecturer asked for answers. He quickly yelled out all MY answers when the lecturer asked d question. Felt like smacking him…HARD!!

Feeling pretty frustrated today actually. Spent the whole afternoon planning to go out tonight but plan after plan was cancelled. First planned to stay in Subang with Isla, Heidi & Debbie and go out with them tonight. Then Isla smsed saying the rest dont want to go. Then planned of stayin in a hotel wif Andre, Sids & Erin. Den after checking online and calling around 5-6 hotels that were fully booked or too expensive, I finally found a perfect one. Then Erin said dont want coz too mahal (?!?!? RM 36 a nite is mahal? Oh well,dats d life of a student….owez broke…i understand). Den the next backup plan (the 3rd one) was for Pam to stay wif us instead of Erin. Problem is that she can only confirm after 4 pm. So there goes my plan to meet up with Isla and the rest in KLCC around 2 pm coz I need to get a confirmation. But around 3.30pm wanted to still meet up with Isla dey ol so called them to ask where are they…they said they were at Petaling street and would be going to Midvalley so I told them to c0ntact me when they were on their way to Midvalley.

At around 4.10 got news that Pam cant make it. Damn…….

Then Heidi smsed saying it rained in Petaling Street and they were all wet and were going home. At that point of time, i wuz cursing under my breath already then I got so fed up I juz went to sleep and didnt want to contact anyone already.

Somehow I think of Lola….missing her like crazy….feel like crying when i think of the times we always hang out together. Even if we couldnt get transport home after clubbing we juz chilled out together and went for breakfast the next morning before taking the morning bus back to hostel.

Lola bebeh….I mizz u like I’ve never missed anyone else before….

{except grace & J lah}

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Current Mood : Depressed & Lonely
Now listening to : “Where Will You Go” - Evanescence
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