Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:
messy, disorganized, social, tough, outgoing, rarely worries, self revealing, open, risk taker, likes the unknown, likes large parties, makes friends easily, likes to stand out, likes to make fun of people, reckless, optimistic, positive, strong, does not like to be alone, ambivalent about chaos, abstract, impractical, not good at saving money, fearless, trusting, thrill seeker, not rule conscious, enjoys leadership, strange, loves food, abstract, rarely irritated, anti-authority, attracted to the counter culture

was supposed to go to collage at 10 am, mom woke me up at 9.30 but i promptly went back to sleep. LOL!

I had a kind of weird dream after I went back to sleep.

Firstly I was outside this house in a field and it was early morning. The house was white and kind of raised up, it had a porch encircling the house. Really reminds me of those ranches we see in some western movies. That house belonged to one of my best friends, a Malaysian-born-American who went back to the US about a year ago.

I was riding a bicycle with her and her family, just enjoying the morning breeze and the sun rising up when I realize it was getting near to the afternoon and I was supposed to go to collage.

{Scene changed}
Next thing i knew was that i was walking towards my hostel which was actually the Curtin hostel and i saw most of my flat mates and entered my room. My room was messy (as usual) and it looked like i was half packed coz i saw my dark green suitcase opened and lots of clothes and stuff on the floor. Then i suddenly woke up

Went to uni around 1 pm and met Erin, went to register and get my timetable and pay my school fees. Only left at 5pm.

I have a lot of business subjects this semester *cries* because i need it for basics. Im taking economics, accounting, management & law. Mostly reading subjects…and im bad at reading subjects. Not only that, the average time my classes starts are 10 am (but the bus leaves my area at 8am) and all finish at 6pm (but the next bus is at 7.30 pm)…meaning by the time i get back it’ll be 8.30pm or so *wails*.

The only good thing is that Im also taking Web Developing so im looking forward to that.

Classes starts on Monday. *sigh* Im now officially in the last sem of my foundation before continuing towards my Software Programming with Multimedia Degree

I finally bought the turtles i’ve been wanting for about a year now (i never bought it coz I always had to move house or move state). Havent named them yet. The bigger one is a female and the smaller one is a male i think. And the smaller one likes to dig.

The bigger one (female)

The smaller one (male). Thinking of calling it Digger

Both turtles.

I got the turtles in One Utama in this shop near Hinode (that RM5 shop), they were RM6 each. Cute kan!!
The glass bowl thingy i got from Hinode, only RM 5
Blue glass stones from Ikea
Turtle food = RM3.50

Total : rm20.50

…neighbours…

I switched rooms with my younger sister recently (so that when they wake up in the morning they dont disturb me) so its this really small room near the main entrance of my condominium.
So yeah, this “new” room of mine has this window that i realized is facing the room of my neighbour. its like only 3-4 feet away. Yesterday around 11 sumthing i was cleaning my room so my curtains and windows were wide open. Then i saw this guy in the room opposite changing his shirt. ACCIDENTLY OKAY!! but tak sempat see his face!! only see his back.

I never see my neighbours u kno..dunno wat they do or whatever. then again im usually in the house or out…not hanging around in the corridor.

hehe…..manatau can cuci mata sikit

…so sweet…

Mag said this really sweet thing today. She asked me to listen to Beautiful Soul by Jesse MacCartney. She said it reminds her of me. I asked why? she said “because you have a beautiful soul.” man..that was Sooo sweet.

“Beautiful Soul”[Chorus]
I don’t want another pretty face
I don’t want just anyone to hold
I don’t want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You’re the one I wanna chase
You’re the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I’d be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you’ll see the heart in me

[Chorus]

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I’ll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

[Chorus]

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don’t wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

[Chorus]

Your beautiful soul, yeah

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Now Listening to: “Beautiful Soul” by Jesse MacCartney

…2004 memories…

How many boyfriends/girlfriends? none

How many crushes? 2 or 3 I tink – Lola, Heidi & I owez cuci mata anyway

Care to mention any names? Moe (thank god he’s not reading this)

Had to say goodbye to? Everyone in Miri & KK Grace before she left to Kch

Missed anyone? Everyone in Miri & Grace and some people in KK

Win anything? I won 2 online competitions and got LOTR merchandise & a Atomic Kitten CD

Best place you went to? Nowhere in particular

Worst place you went to? KL…haha…not used to it here….i juz need time

Happiest moment? During Bal’s birthday party I guess.

Worst moment? March-April when I had problems with friends

Best present? Christmas presents from Lian – coz no one every posted prezzies

Best party? Every weekend from March – June…seriously!!

Best movie? Butterfly Effect, Phantom of the Opera

Best song? Yeah - Usher featuring Ludacris & Lil’ Jon & The Reason - Hoobastank

Best month? June because all my problems got settled out. The only thing left was exams

Lesson you’ve learned from 2004? The value of friendships

Hope for this new year? Settling down in KL
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…me in 2004…

1. What did you do in 2004 that you’d never done before? Meet up with online friends alone (usually go in group). Club 4 days in a row. Go out clubbing before a final paper (Moral), came back and sat for the paper

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I did not make new year resolutions last year

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Not that I know of

4. Did anyone close to you die? No but my best friend’s grandmother passed away

5. What countries did you visit? Brunei…hahaha!

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? More determination!

7. What date/s from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? I don’t remember particular date, but the memories that will remain in my memory is the times that Lola stayed over in my hostel room for a month or so

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I didn’t feel like I achieved anything significant in 2004

9. What was your biggest failure? Not completing my Foundation in Engineering even tho I repeated some subjects

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Injury = shoulder pain after a motorcycle accident. Pain for almost a week.

11. What was the best thing you bought? A new handphone – Nokia 6610i after my old hp got stolen

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Lian coz he’s so nice to me

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Certain friends who hurt me

14. Where did most of your money go? Clubbing…haha..and transport (buses & taxis)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Blogging! I’d do it everyday. And Warcraft, played it on LAN every night. LOL!

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? The Reason - Hoobastank

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
(i) happier or sadder? At this time last year I was happier becoz I was in KK and we had lots of activities during the Christmas & year end celebrations
(ii) thinner or fatter? Fatter…haha! Lost quite a bit of weight in Miri
(iii) richer or poorer? No difference

18. What do you wish you’d done more? Concentrated on my studies

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Going out and caring so much about “what people think”

20. Did you fall in love in 2004? No

21. How many one-night stands? None

22. What was your favorite TV program? CSI, Gilmore Girls

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? No

24. What was the best book you read? Angels & Demons – Dan Brown

25. What was your greatest musical discovery? Erm….nothing. Im not musically talented

26. What did you want and get? I wanted to complete my studies but instead I got a whole lot of fun at the expense of my studies. Im lazy bah

27. What was your favorite film of this year? The Phantom Of the Opera

28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I juz went out for dinner on my birthday and went to Sid’s hse the next day for makan. I was 19

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? No having to move from Sarawak to KL

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? Cincai….haha….just simple but nice

31. What kept you sane? My good friends

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? None…not interested lah

33. What political issue stirred you the most? Hmm..not interested in politics

34. Who did you miss? Everyone i left behind in Curtin

35. Who was the best new person you met? Lian tho technically I havent met him

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: I learnt that trust shouldn’t be given so easily because the person that is your friend today could be your enemy tomorrow. I’ve also learnt that it’s okay to take risks and be brave as long as you are able to think out your actions properly. And that “what people think” doesn’t matter.

Thanks for everyone’s concern. No, im not feeling better. Still feel as shitty as before. But life has to go on I guess. I have been blogging offline. Didnt really feel like uploading it. What’s the point? No one’s actually reading it anyway *sigh*

yet another boring day of commuting. Except that I had to go much earlier, coz my dad needed to get to work earlier. But the upside was my mom picked me up staraight after class, around 11 am. So i manage to get home earlier. Ate chicken rice for breakfast+lunch+hightea at around 2pm. Yummy…havent eaten that for ages. Probably had too much nasi lemak wif ayam goreng.

Oh yeah, Im goin to be home alone till Sat coz my family went to stay in Sunway Hotel (my dad has a room there for some business meeting). I didnt want to go because hte only thing to do is eat, sleep, watch tv, go swim, repeat. since i can do all that at home, i might at well stay at home so that i can at least go online.

As of today, i have 3 assignments (more like the last assignment for the whole sem, carries about 20% of total grade)

1. IT Assignment - the one i mentioned on monday, its kind of overdue but the lecturer is pretty lenient and the work is very easy anyway.
2. Design studies assignment - designing a corporate logo complete with stationary (letterhead, namecard, file, envelope, ect) and a brochure. Due next week Monday and havent started. My other groupmates are doin d brochure, so my job is juz to draw out hte logo and print/photocopy whereever necessary.
3. A research essay for business management - its actually on PETRONAS. Have to answer a few questions on how the teories we learnt are implemented in the company. Part (a) & (c) is finished by my other groupmates. I havent started on my part yet. and that’s due on Thursday.

CAnt stand it…ahve to sleep….will wake up and complete all my assignments tomorrow. Yes im a procrastinator.

Oh yeah, no more classes, juz have to hand up all the assignments and then attend the final exams on 16th - 17th Dec. After that, im FREE till next semester (starting 16th Feb)

Business class as usual. Other groups presented their topics, seemed a bit messy and I got all confused. Lucky the lecturer gave notes *phew!*

I so hate going to uni lately. I have class from 9-11 am on mondays and wednesdays, 11-12.30 pm on Tuesdays but I have to take a bus at 7.30 am and come back using the 3pm bus, meaning i’ll reach home around 4.30pm. Commuting SUCKS!!

I dreamt I was captured by some creature - looks a lil like a Minatour - to a big, white marble hall with wide columns and tall glass doors/windows along the sides. I slipped out an open window while d creature wasnt looking and flew(??) to hide in bushes nearby. The flying sensation was wonderful, as if i were swimming in air. I flew away, passing thru other hses & Gardens.

As i woke up, i remembered that I had a VERY SIMILAR dream many years ago. That EXACT sensation of flying/swimming in air…and running away from someone. Im 100% sure i had a similar dream, and im 80% sure i dreamt it when i first moved from Miri to KK in 1997-1998

I believe dreams are products of our subconcious. I dont think it can tell the future but perhaps give an insight to what we’re feeling inside. Currently im juz wondering what the state of my subconcious mind is…

Oh yeah, i had IT class today and forgot all about an assignment i was supposed to hand up. Goin to email it to the lecturer as soon as i finish (coz i havent started). On a more positive note, that was my class class on Monday.

I dreamt that I got an email from you.
I dreamt you said you missed me lots and was sorry we couldnt meet often.
I dreamt that you promise to be true to me.
I dreamt that in the week you were coming you treated me like a queen.
I dreamt that we parted after that one week with promises that we would be together,
that we would be true, that you would wait till I come see you next year….
And i continue to dream…………………..

juz felt like writing that….btw, i really did dream all that last nite. But as the last line says, its only a dream…hehehehe

Oh yeah,
Happy Birthday HUD~! Tho of course ur not reading this, but wat the heck! I might give u a call - if im rajin enough. LOL!

One more note:
Sadly, Melvin Dennis has left Evenstarr to concentrate on completing his degree. So sad, Mel was one of the first and best band members to befriend. And he was also the funniest. I cherish the first time i met him at CB in miri and we hanged out at a coffee shop till dawn. Exchanging jokes, and he even accidently thought a customer was a waitress and asked for a drink. damn that was funny.

Hope to see you around Mel~!

p/s: Isla, Heidi, Lola: nang bena crita tok……sedih kmk Mel dah kluar dari evenstarr la…dahla nya plg best klakar, yg lain ya, serious sikit.

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Current mood: Melancholic