Someone told… me that I look so troubled when I sleep, as if the weight of the world is on my shoulders. My cheeks droop and I don’t look happy. Which is contrary to how I am when I’m awake - bubbly, cheerful, funny, happy.

And I think… its because when I’m awake I don’t really worry about a lot of problems, I take life as it comes. But when I sleep, I dream weird dreams and never have restful sleep. My mind is constantly working, going around in circles, pondering things in my subconscious. Perhaps that why I look so tense. (more…)

The words that comfort me and make me feel loved
From the lips that have touched mine
Is spoken to another person,
The exact same tone, exact same mood
The very same words

“You’re playing with fire. Don’t forget karma.” said Pam. Yes, I know, I know. But this is the path I chose to take, karma or no karma. I selfishly chose my own happiness - without regard of what or who gets burnt.

Technically, I have no right to terasa. Come on, its not like I didn’t expect it to happen. I knew that I’d have to face it sooner or later and not just once, but a few times at that. But then, how come I feel so…..

Worst part is, no matter how much we try to assure ourselves, I know this won’t have a happy ending. Sigh~

**comments are closed because I just don’t feel like it**

*looks at the clock* yea I’m up too early today. Morning world

Technically it isn’t a breakup which is why I mention it as a “break up” with all the inverted commas. Hehe! I was never officially together with B but it was progressing that way, we got closer and closer.

I thought perhaps he was the one guy who was serious about me. *sigh* The good things in my life , wait, let me rephrase. Its more like the good guys in my life don’t last long. Then again, maybe they weren’t “good guys” after all. I’ve been warned over and over that I trust people too easily.

Anyway, I’ve been debating on how to cut it off with him since December. I have some stuff over at his place. Every time I break it off with someone its usually over the phone - not because I want to, but circumstances forces me to do that. Usually its a fight over the phone then I say I want a breakup then never contact him or layan his “I made a mistake and now I want you back” calls.

So, I kinda chickened out. I never actually got to the point that I told him it’s off, but I sent my guy fren to pick up all my stuff. I lent him my other phone to use because his was spoilt and I don’t like it when I can’t contact someone. Now since I took it back, he has no means to contact me and I can’t contact him either. So I guess its like an assumption la

Evil kan?

Typing out Tuesday’s post in Starbucks Pavilion. I still want a STARBUCKS BEAR!

My friend said I should write a list of the (unique) things that I don’t have. Actually it started of with a conversation about astro then he actually took a piece of paper and started ‘interviewing’ me and took notes. Below is the result of his scribbles from a small plain white notepad jotted down with pencil:

• No cuping telinga - Means that the bottom of my ears are not separated from my head. LOL! I forgot what’s the english term for it. Something like my earlobe is stuck to the side of my head. Sounds utterly weird tho.
• No Cats - I’ve never kept cats before as pets. Dogs yes. Rabbits yes. Hamsters yes. But no cats. This is due to the fact that I used to have really bad asthma and my sister has eczema and is so her skin is very sensitive to all these furry stuff.
• No tattoo - Well, at least not yet
• No game console - I have no PS1 (do people even play this now?), PS2, PS3, PSP, XBox or Wii in my house. I do have a TV.
• No DVD/VCD Player - My parents never bought a DVD player. We used to have a VCD & VHS (those bulky black tapes) player but now it doesn’t work. Who uses VCD & VHS nowadays anyway.
• No astro - So many people have found this hard to believe but yes, i DO NOT have Astro at home. And Im currently staying in my parents house, not a rumah sewa. No ESPN, No Discovery, No AFN, No WahLaiToi, No Starmovies, No MTV and the list goes on and on. Never had before and never will I think. So usually when friends talk about a certain tv show/programme, i usually just keep quiet lor.

Come to think of it, besides our 2 PCs and 2 Laptops, my house is void of entertainment. Haha! We’re a bunch of internet addicts at home I guess.

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I got my Chinese New Year baju already at Jusco Sunway today.

Doesn’t it look utterly sweet? Red buttoned up top with a tie at the waist. Not too sexy tho, coz I’m going back to my grandma’s house for CNY dinner on the 6th night.

Damage : RM50

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The person right before our eyes can sometimes be the person that is totally out of our reach. *sigh*

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Pic of my first stuffed toy. Yea really! Weirdly I never had flowers or stuffed dolls from guys. I just realized something funny. This doll is named “BlurBlur” - just like the person who gave it to me. Blur!

Its weird isn’t it? How one brief moment would make such a difference? Some time ago I would have never expected to be friends with you (takut kot. hehe).

Then again, who would have known that 2 people that hardly know each other could click in such an uncanny way. It was so unexpected, unplanned, spontaneous, fun, amusing, surprising, etc etc.

So many more things I want to say, but I know I don’t need to. Let it be between us. Whatever it is, I’m always going to look back fondly at the times we had (and maybe will have again? hehe).

Thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making me feel like a princess. Muax