Well…when it comes to this point…the only thing left to do is to move on. “Get new friends”..dat what people said. Hah! Easier said than done. Friends are a big priority in my life. I’ve got lotsa frens…but only get close to a few….found out last sem that the bunch i got close to tend to ignore me coz they got “hooked up” with each other……

The same thing happened again with another group of frens….whether purposely or not…i dont know…what i do know is….This is really the end of the line….Trust is too fragile a thing to be easily given to others….

now im really pissed off… …..i think there was a lot of opportunity for me to go…and yet…i’m stuck in this boring hostel

Been a lil depressed lately…….parents dont let me go back for the holidays…meaning I’m goinna be stuck here. Got exams coming up…and I cant concentrate on my studies. Purposely missed  classes for 2 days now……I juz cant bring myself to go to class when I’m not in the mood to do anything. I might get angry at the lecturer or my frens and lose myself.

Friends……a word that is supposed to be self-explainatory. Apparently I suck at choosing good friends……Seems like i cant get close to anyone here….I’ll juz end up getting hurt.[ Note to self : Trust no-one.] Seems like I’m goinna build a thick, big wall around my heart so I wont get hurt………like what i wrote in my MSN messanger nick “Watevala….I dont give a damn anymore…………Nothing can hurt me coz i’ve given up hoping”. Yeap…dats true…I’ve given up hoping….hoping for the best is ok…but i dont put trust on dat hope.

Moody and depressed………………..

Im in a seriously bad mood at the moment so if any bad words come out, juz bear with me. If you cant, then i dont really give a damn.

Feeling miserable as well…was sick the whole day…stayed i bed till around 4 pm. Then everyone else went out…except for me. But i declined coz i wasnt feeling too good. I was wondering how come my roommate (and “so called best fren”) hasnt come home yet so I called her to make sure she isnt stranded in town coz the last bus has left. Then I find out that she’s in this restaurant with a few of my frens (coz it’s her birthday today)….all whom i juz met 1 hr ago….all whom didnt tell me they were going. I dont really give a shit about whether they go without me or not. It’s the fact that they went behind my back dat irritates me. Especially since it’s not the first time…nor will it be the last. This is the end of the line….it’s time for me to look for other friends to hang out with since the ones i have now are hopeless.

watched Lord of the Rings : Return of the King. It was good…..hhehehe….can’t really say much or else it might be a spoiler.  Go watch! One of my guy frens did comment dat it was rather boring….but probably coz he didnt watch the first 2 and isnt interested in these kinda movies.

Hmm…felt a bit irritated and frustrated today. One of my friends has been bossing people around lately and not being appreciative of what others do for him/her. His/Her actions are kinda pissing me off…. Can’t really stand seeing others being bullied. Hmm…but what can I do when others juz follows wat she/he says? Oh well…..I guess people change too much and too fast…..

PC still not working ….i think it has something to do with the graphic card not transmitting properly or something. I’ve opened my CPU case and nothing is lose. Goinna send it to the computer shop later today. I cant stand it using my home computer…it’s too damned slow. I’d type 6 words before the letters all start appearing one-by-one real slow.

It’s the holidays…been back for 2 days. Did nothing but sleep, eat and go to toilet. Gotta make up for all the hours of lost sleep….ehhehe…But i’m bored, bored BORED!!!

juz today, my fren juz called me up for a chat but then she suddenly wanted to hang up 5 mins later…i asked why..she said “oh, my bf is going online” then she put the phone down…sheesh

and yesterday, when i called a fren out of state to ask for help bout my pc…all he could say was how much he missed his gf. He actually sounded like he was about to cry (which was really sweet, i think) but he wasnt much help either.