Im going back to Miri soon~! Yay!! I miss Miri and all my frens there. I’m goinna really miss the fun, laughter & great times we had before. Seems like im always moving here and thr :S First from KK -> Miri and now Miri -> KL.

Oh well, Im going back for a week to take all my things, my computer especially. Wonder how am i going to bring everything back. I guess i juz gotta decide when i actually get there. heheh~!

I just managed to upload this song on my blog so here’s the lyrics….

I just cant understand the hearts of men
They tell you they want you and then they leave you
This is the first time, you`re special
I believed those words and I was so happy

Chorus :
You should have told me you didn`t like me any more
But I couldn`t see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I`ll still miss you
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

I heard that if you give up things too easily
To a man, he will get bored with you
I don`t think this is wrong
A girl says that she will never be fooled again
But she will fall in love again

Chorus

Hey babe, The pain
It`s not enough to describe how i feel
We were so happy together
But I know now, I`ve been blind
You told me that you`d never let me down
Whenever I needed you you`d always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
Even though you hurt me
I still love you, I still love you

Bridge :
Don`t take advantage of a girl`s willingness to do anything for love
And her caring instinct
I didn`t know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
Although i will curse you i`ll still miss you
Since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
Although i will curse you i`ll still miss you
Since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

Yay!! finally i have found a weblog format that I like (for now that is). Actually have another blog in http://www.xanga.com/sikepi so please visit it to comment Thanks. Im currently goinna switch to this blog. Oh yeah, i have another one…but it’s filled with kinda degrading (dat’s putting it really mildly) comments and I dont want to have the trouble of ppl being offended on my hands so i’ll keep the URL a secret. Besides that, I cant really customize the pages in xanga but i can here. Goody!

In case anyone wuz wondering, “belles-lettres” is a word that is “used somewhat vaguely for literary works in which imagination and taste are predominant.”

29 July

My dad finally got a new PC for the house. Yay! My pesterings kinda worked…well it took a long time but at least it works. Still cant go online today though coz the connection is not set up yet….but hopefully soon *crosses fingers*

Anyway, what im more excited about is the past 2 days. I had the BEST 2 days of my life in KL.Met up with an old fren (Gloria) and decided to sleep over coz she invited me to go clubbing. We went to Bangsar with 2 other guys and another gal. It wuz really fun coz I got to make new frens and go clubbing - something i havent done in about a month. It wasn’t very “happening” as i imagined it to be but dats prolly coz it wuz Wed nite. We went coz it wuz ladies nite. After that we lepak at tis mamak stall and juz sat and chit chat. Laughed a lot dat nite. Danced, drank, watchd someone getting tipsy. LOL! *No names mentioned to protect privacy*

I’ve decided to take a different approach when meeting people. Believe it or not, im actually shy (!!!) esp when I meet new ppl. I tend to get introverted when I first meet people, unless you talk about something that really interests me. Which explains why people say “I tot you were a quiet, goody gal but apparently i was wrong,” only after they get to know me better. Hehe! So this time, i decided to juz be really friendly (which actually comes naturally, except when im shy ;P) and it wuz great fun Didnt regret that at all. Managed to make new frens so that at least i have ppl to go out with. If they ask me out la, coz im still not very confident to be the one to initiate…shy mah!! hahaha!!

Back to my story….came back around 3 and went to sleep. But i was awakened at around 8.30 am coz my fren’s neighbour’s son was screaming at the top of his lungs, I mean literally wailing his lungs out. After around half an hour then he decided to sleep and by that time, i couldn’t really go back to sleep so I just lazed around until 10.00 and when my fren woke up we chit chatted then got ready coz she wuz meeting friends and I was supposed to go back.

Supposed. That is before they invited me along and didnt take no for an answer. So we went to RedBox (a Kareoke place) in Sunway Piramid for lunch until around 3 pm. It wuz fun and a pretty interesting experience coz i dont really go to these places, and especially not in the afternoon. After that we hung around in Piramid for a while before deciding to play datona. I won….hehehe!!….TWICE!!! I missed playing that with frens back in Miri. There’s also indoor archery there and im thinking of going soon but see how lah.

I hope I can go online tomorrow. Im getting really irritated :S coz of boredom. Oh yeah, we’re supposed to go to Genting this weekend but even that was cancelled and I was really looking forward to it. Oh well, not my choice.

I wana go to Zouk to see see….my fren (the one i sleptover wif) might be going with other frens Fri nite. I wish i had more frens here

Anyway, im tired but dont really feel like sleeping yet. so i think i’ll play some games first

23 July 2004
No point keeping up a daily commentary…im only going to post this up every Fri nite anyway. Still no sign of my parents deciding, except that they’ve finally decided to appeal (coz I got terminated) today…which leaves approx 2 weeks before the semester starts. Wow! That’s fast! *sarcastic*

Well, it is probably my fault all this happened (as my mom likes to say & I quote, “If u passed, this wont happen”) OH YEAH….like I didn’t try my best…..*NEWS FLASH* It’s over and done with, cant change that now **

Well actually, Im kinda irritated of waiting. Its boring here at home. Coz my sisters’ go to sch and Im basically stuck at home doing housework not to mention that I have no maid and my mom’s a neat freak (kinda reminds me of Rachel….but worse…no offence, Rach). So far, I’ve reorganized the CD case, read every story book in the house twice….Juz finished reading Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire for the 2nd time in a week….have a slight suspicion I’ll be reading that again next week unless I get to persuade my parents to get the next book (fat chance of that!!). My hp’s been MIA since before the exams and I still haven’t got any sign of it. Asked my dad about it for the millionth time after about a week (got sick of asking) this morning and he said, “yeah, tomorrow morning lah”…now, where have I heard that before??

Oh, did I mention that it’s 7 am now…listening to Jason Lo & Rudy on Hitz.FM, don’t get good radio channels back in Miri. Hehe!! Except for the fact that I listen to it 24/7, even in the shower, I tend to hear the same songs 2-3 times a day…understandable coz they have to play the top hits to suit their listeners and since it’s mostly R&B, it suits me just fine.

Wonder if my 600 book money is already in my account? Coz I banked in the check last week after being helped by a really helpful guard at the bank. Not to mention that Im dead broke.

I went to the IC Dept (or whatever it’s called) a few days ago to do MyCard (new IC) with an old auntie of mine….embarresed myself in front of her. We were eating lunch at McD (she likes fried chicken for some reason – even at that age) and I thought she offered me her french fries, which I took coz I was bored while my mom and her were engrossed in some sisterly catching up. Then we were about to leave and I was putting it (the French fries) into my plastic bag when my mom insisted it for her. Apparently she wanted the French fries to keep for herself later and I misunderstood her while happily eating it. LOL! laughla!! It’s supposed to be funny.

Oh yeah, I saw Evenstarr’s video clip “Masih” on Channel 9 the other day. For those that doesn’t know, Evenstarr is a local band from Kuching and the drummer is a friend of mine. They’re a new band and they’re quite good in Eng & BM songs. Good job guys J

The Rasmus was here 1-2 days ago in Hard Rock Café but of course I didn’t go. There was also a Jazz festival – the Green Room Festival – but of course I didn’t go too. Hoobastank is coming in August…not sure if im going, but of course I doubt. See how my boring my life is? Everyone says “Wuah, so syok you in KL, can go shopping and all the other events.” Yeah rite…

Im sick of having no internet access. Probably coz I’m too used to it. My dad bought Webbit – a new broadband wireless technology from Timedotcom – but of course my computer is so ancient that it doesn’t have a port for the Ethernet cable then my dad says he’ll buy a PC…but no sign of that yet (why am I not surprised?). I don’t dare to say anything until I’m sure where I’ll end up studying. Too much pestering isn’t good for my situation now. Oh yeah, back to my PC. To show you how slow it is, here are it’s specs : Intel Celeron 225 Mhz (yes MEGAHz), 128 MB RAM, 13.9 GB HDD & running on Win 98. How ancient is that??? At this point, I have no comment *rolls eyes*

Hmm….7.30 am already…I think I’m going to devote today to write testimonials which are way overdue. Sorry for those who have been waiting. I’m getting right to it ASAP.

Hey, just wondering….is anyone really reading this? If you are…please please please comment or write something on the right column on the right.

{11 pm}

I wrote so many testimonials and took some pictures here in KL but when i tried to open the CD in the Cybercafe, i cant. Wat a waste of time!!!!!!!!

The past 3 weeks have been kind of a monotonous (sp?) boring never-ending cycle…

Came back….wuz like a stranger in my own house. Slept in my sis’ room…which didn’t work out so kicked my youngest sis outta her room and I have a room all to myself again. Yay!

Bored like hell at home. My computer at home is a total hopeless machine. Its too slow to actually do anything with it. Not to mention the fact that sometimes I cant even switch on the monitor. Been pestering my dad to get a new one for 3 weeks already. No phone line…no internet access except for a 2 hr stint in a CC every Fri nite…so the only way to catch me online is Fri nite, 10-12 midnite.

Did I also mention that I failed my subjects (except for that confounded Moral which I didn’t study for?) So currently my future in Curtin (or anywhere else for that matter) is TBA – To Be Advised…or should it be To-be-held-up-until-further-notice-or-until-my-parents-actually-make-up-their-minds ?

At first I thought the wait for the results was bad, didn’t sleep properly for 1 week plus, now I find that the wait for the decision on where I’m goinna be “thrown” is worse…..