Suteki da ne (Isn’t It Beautiful?)………but life ISNT

I changed the song in my blog to a Midi of “Suteki Da Ne” meaning Isn’t It Beautiful? in Japanese from the game Final Fantasy X (yeap i used to play FF, FF8 only tho). The music is melancholic & sad – suits my feeling.

Reading the lyrics, we realize the whole thing is nothing but a DREAM….much like my empty dreams of happiness…..

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Suteki Da Ne
kaze ga yoseta kotoba ni
oyoida kokoro
kumo ga hakobu ashita ni
hazunda koe
The wind, like a heart that swam in the accumulated words
The clouds, a voice that was shot into the holding future

tsuki ga yureru kagami ni
furueta kokoro
hoshi ga nagare koboreta
yawarakai namida
The moon, a shaking heart in an unsteady mirror
The stars, gentle tears in an overflowing stream

suteki da ne
futari te wo tori aruketa nara
ikitai yo
KIMI no machi ie ude no naka
Isn’t it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands
I do so want to go,
To your city, your house, into your arms.

sono mune
karada azuke
yoi ni magire
yumemiru
That heart,
held within your body
In those confusing nights
I dream

kaze wa tomari kotoba wa
yasashii maboroshi
kumo wa yabure ashita wa
tooku no koe
The wind, its halting words are a gentle illusion
The clouds, the broken future like a distant voice

tsuki ga nijimu kagami wo
nagareta kokoro
hoshi ga yurete koboreta
kakusenai namida
The moon, a heart flowing in the clouded mirror
The stars, broken and swaying, like tears unable to be hidden.

suteki da ne
futari te wo tori aruketa nara
ikitai yo
KIMI no machi ie ude no naka
Isn’t it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands
I do so want to go,
To your city, your house, into your arms.

sono kao
sotto furete
asa ni tokeru
yumemiru
That face,
A soft touch,
Dissolving into morning,
I dream.

風が　寄せた　言葉に
泳いだ　心
雲が　運ぶ　明日に
弾んだ　声

月が　揺れる　鏡に
震えた　心
星が　流れ　こぼれた
柔らかい　涙

素敵だね
二人手をとり　歩けたなら
行きたいよ
キミの街　家　腕の中

その胸
からだあずけ
宵にまぎれ
夢見る

風は　止まり　言葉は
優しい　幻
雲は　破れ　明日は
遠くの　声

月が　にじむ　鏡を
流れた　心
星が　揺れて　こぼれた
隠せない　涙

素敵だね
二人手をとり　歩けたなら
行きたいよ
キミの街　家　腕の中

その顔
そった触れて
朝に溶ける
夢見る

If your asking, yes, I’m depressed. Hard for me to explain why…this blog is getting too public. But i might reveal it soon…that is, if i feel like it…

*cries to self*

I F**KING HATE MOVING……it su*ks….i hate starting over, i hate making friends all over again…..i hate having to adapt to new ppl, new lifestyles and new attitude

Most of all, i hate it when a guy plays with my feelings….and this is not hte freaking first time

I still put on a mask of happiness tho…